Love Peace and Harmony by Bow Wow Wow

This is the US version. I remember listening to BWW during my studies at Concordia Irvine. Their music helped me through difficult episodes. After that, I would occasionally listen during my years with Preggie. When I settled in Kentucky, I wanted to play Bow Wow Wow all day. To hear this song on the way…

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Higher Than The Sun by Primal Scream

Here is a piece from the early 90s, an extended version of this Primal Scream song. It’s pretty much about tripping balls to the point of experiencing higher consciousness. This version is much better than the radio edit– not rushed but a sensual stream of sound. The problem with this song is that any adult…

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Selections for Kentucky Downs, 13 Sep

Today is the last day of the meet, and I do have picks for today. I’m working from races 3-10 as I am participating in a free tournament and the past performances cover these races. Remember that you subtract the KTDF money from the purse money so we can see a more accurate level. 3)…

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WhoMadeWho: Inside World (Detone Mix)

Whenever I get ready to attend a stakes race, I would dress up to this song.  It especially works great with the Pegasus World Cup at Gulfstream.  The weather, the sunglasses, that certain mood.

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Attire Upgrade

The past few weeks, I had to make a few changes to everyday attire. I have mentioned in the Weep No More guide that due to executive function, I stick to wearing horse racing themed t-shirts and black pants. Got word from HR about acceptable things to wear and while I can continue to wear…

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KENTUCKY DOWNS SELECTIONS FOR 1 SEPTEMBER 2018

The Travers Stakes came and went, which means it is time for pumpkin spice. And Kentucky Downs. You guys are probably thinking, that weird turf track north of Nashville? Don’t be fooled, the horseplayers are very excited for this very short meet. First off, the field at each race gets filled with talent. That’s because…

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A New Opportunity

Shortly after, I went to church and was helping the rector set up.  He said to me whilst setting up: “You know, we can make you a deaconess.” My heart skipped a beat.  “How?” The bishop can review my transcripts and I can have an internship, the rector explained. In my mind, I heard the…

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A Proposed Rule of Living, v 1.0

The Rule 1) Conduct and attend liturgical and doctrinally resonant services with timeless appeal. Educate yourself about the Liturgy and its continuity from Mosaic to Early Church to Reformation to today. 2) Frequent communion, weekly confession, daily catechesis and prayer are very beneficial. 3) Cultivate rich spiritual friendships. 4) Seek the positive. Best construction. Look…

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God is a Kentuckian…and He is merciful to Hoosiers as well.

Photo Description: William Faulkner’s face with a quote from his book The Sound and the Fury: “Ever since then I have believed that God is not only a gentleman and a sport; he is a Kentuckian too.” MYSTIC ALERT!!! Quite unorthodox, no? But if you ever visited my Commonwealth, you will see people in pursuit…

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Goodbye Wittenberg.

Simply put, I am walking away from the church body that harmed me psychologically. After 20 years of dedication, after years of being pressured to remain, I no longer am a member of a Missouri Synod Lutheran church. My spiritual director does not fully understand why I am leaving, so I will take the time…

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Out of Exile and into healing

I know I have now a new identity, a new career, and overall a new life worth living. However, I must address my trauma so I can make peace. Two weeks ago, I went to the hospital for an episode in which I experienced urges to self-harm. I figured, I can either white-knuckle it through…

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I wish I could attend the Met Mile.

It is a very busy Triple Crown season for me. I have to work during Derby weekend, Preakness weekend, and now the Belmont Stakes racing festival. At Churchill Downs, these days are mandatory work days. I wanted to work at the track during Derby weekend and asked my boss’ boss. No dice. I had to…

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The Fourth Kentucky Derby Future Wager Pool

Audible (#1, 6-1) Bolt d’Oro (#2, 5-1) Bravazo (#3, 50-1) Combatant (#4, 30-1) Enticed (#5, 20-1) Flameaway (#6, 30-1) Free Drop Billy (#7, 30-1) Good Magic (#8, 8-1) Gronkowski (#9, 30-1) Hofburg (#10, 30-1) Instilled Regard (#11, 50-1) Justify (#12, 6-1) Lone Sailor (#13, 50-1) Magnum Moon (#14, 10-1) Mendelssohn (#15, 10-1) Mississippi (#16, 50-1)…

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An Autistic Horseplayer’s Guide to Attending the Races

We are in the middle of the Kentucky Derby prep race season, and that means stakes season! It’s exciting and full of fun to see these hopefuls race and qualify for the Derby this May. Soon, Keeneland will open and next month, Churchill Downs will open as well. It also means a crapton of sensory…

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The Third Kentucky Derby Future Pool

This weekend (9-11 March), there will be the third KD Future Pool. Here is the list with starting odds: Audible (#1, 8-1) Avery Island (#2, 30-1) Bolt d’Oro (#3, 6-1) Bravazo (#4, 30-1) Catholic Boy (#5, 30-1) Combatant (#6, 50-1) Flameaway (#7, 30-1) Free Drop Billy (#8, 15-1) Gold Town (GB) (#9, 30-1) Good Magic…

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